Hello My Loves
It has been a while since I have been on here (or anywhere online come to that) but a little while ago I got in such an awesome flow and wrote what I think is a pretty inspiring email to my newsletter crew that unusually I wanted to share it here too, and trust that those that need to hear this find it =)
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Through the Crack
For a few days I’ve wanted to write you, but as you may or may not know I’ve been out of my usual making stuff cycle due to personal circumstances and so didn’t feel like I wanted to until I had something of value to offer (plus I think there was a little resistance there…more on that later).
So for about 6 weeks I’ve been immersed in...I’m not exactly sure what yet. Some new interests (I started gaming, whhhhaaaaattt??), a little re-evaluating, lots of tasty food, plenty of shopping for beads and new arm candy and not much art. Like any. At all. This came as a shock to me because any time tragedy has struck in my life art has always been my go to. It has been both my processing, and my escaping mechanism, for at least the past eight years.
This time felt a lot different and while the inner critics were nagging at me a little for ‘being lazy’, ‘wasting time’ etc etc I know myself well enough now to know when I am in resistance and when I just need a break. When I need a break I give myself that space, I explore other things such as those listed above. When I am in resistance (like sending this email) I MAKE myself come out of it, which may sound harsh (especially for the usual Jennibellie-style philosophy & teachings) but that is in fact sometimes the kindest thing you can do for yourself. Because only then do you get to remember who you really are.
You get to breathe in air again. You get to reacquaint yourself with that quiet inner satisfaction of having created something once more. You get feel your wholeness.
A few days ago I felt the need for taking a break turn into resistance. It’s a subtle shift, but if you honestly check in with yourself the truth of whether you are in *real* need of a break or in resistance will always show itself. I looked a little deeper; I found the cause of my resistance was in the idea of ‘having’ to get back in the saddle. So I made myself just sit in my studio chair, something I hadn’t done in over a month. I wasn’t intending to do anything, just be there. Then I made myself pull out my journal and do some written journaling. It’s not that hard, I could manage that at least couldn’t I? It took TWO LINES of feeling pretty crap about not art journaling/painting/creating and woe is me before I said ‘F*** this’ and I got the paints out. Literally I shall let you read my diary entry of that encounter if you like by placing a picture of the completed page below.
Once I began painting in broad strokes of thick, indelicate sloshes of acrylic paint I decided to post this above pic to facebook stating ‘Beginnings of the first art journal page in over a month. Starting to feel myself coming back’. The response I got included many who have been/are feeling the same way, and given what we have all been going through lately (the rush of the holiday, the back to work rejolt, the gloomy winter, the upheaval to our routines) it’s hardly surprising that so many of us are finding our creativity a difficult place to navigate, or even get in the area of right now - and if you happen to be amongst us here are my tips for you right now...
Don’t wait for the flood!
Sometimes when we take time away from our creativity our muse can tap us on the shoulder and out of the blue and give us a million projects and ideas we want to immediately get started on. How nice! BUT, it is not always how things work, and I see many people waiting for this to happen in order to get them creating again. The result is streams of emails I get from people telling me they ‘haven’t created in over a year’, ‘two years’ and once even ‘six years’. Waiting for the call of the angels and the flood of inspiration to wash in is a very romantic notion. It sounds so lovely, BUT when it actually stops us from creating then I think we are a little too attached to this pretty, but impractical image of creativity. Sometimes you HAVE to MAKE yourself. I think this is too important to be said only once, SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO MAKE YOURSELF. You. Just. Do!
But again this doesn’t have to be harsh. It can be as easy as sitting in a chair. Then doing a little journaling. It can be as easy as taking steps 1-2-3, rather than jumping to 50 straight away. It can be as easy as coaxing, cajoling, caressing your scared self back into the vicinity of inspiration…and then allowing the teeniest, tiniest spark of it to direct you.
Inspiration does not always come in an overwhelming flood of excitement.
It can come through the slightest crack in the door…but you have to be willing to take a deep breath, grab that door handle and ever so slightly, open it up!
Here is that finished page that inspired this post:
If you are feeling yourself in resistance then I have a treat for you. I have made my Creative Resistance Remedy Workshop HALF PRICE for the New Year.
This price is even cheaper than when I launched it at the Early Bird Price & was originally just for the first week of this New Year but as I have not been actively posting/emailing about it I have decided to extend it for you. In truth if you want to know the exact HOW I made myself sit down and write this email then the exact trick I used is shared in this course (which now I have written it I feel pretty amazing actually, surprise surprise…NOT! lol).
This workshop is a perfect New Years workshop to take as it is for those of you that are ready to make your creativity more important than your resistance, your comparison, your procrastination, your perfectionism, your analysis paralysis and all your critics and create your projects already!
Sound good? Awesome! You can read the details, watch the accompanying video & grab this bargain by clicking the ‘Join’ button here:
Much love & Happy Creative 2018